It is said that we are influenced most by the 5 people we spend the most time with. These days, my circle is so small it’s almost able to fit in to a chartreuse micro bus. I’m good with that. People that motivate me, make me smile, cheer me on, kick my butt when I get whiny and lazy, and the one that has stayed staunchly by my side even when I drifted from her. When you have lived 99% of your life in “survival mode” it’s very difficult to find quality over quantity. It requires a lot of growing and a LOT of introspection. Don’t get me wrong, I know that if I truly needed help or someone to talk to I have an immense network of family and friends that would do so if they could. These people though, are helping me learn to depend on myself. To make my own difficult choices and grow.
I find it awkward to still be using that word at 44 but in a sense, I feel that if we always keep growing we will never grow old. I don’t ever want to be so set in my ways that I cannot learn something, or try something new. My dad is like that now, and it makes my heart sad that he has lost his zest to explore and try new things. I don’t ever want to be that way.
Here’s to my circle. I love you all. I value what you bring to my life, and I thank you for letting me be a part of yours.
Happy Friday darlings!!